Well, it is quite obvious that I do not like changes. As heard from the song Stay the Same by Joey Mcintyre: "And I hope you always stay the same.....". Lol. Anyway, I'm not too sure why, but I do agree with the song as to not want to see people change nor see myself change too much.
A few examples of change which I may not like:
1) Change of fashion
2) Change of music style
3) Change of favourites (food & beverages)
4) Change in people.
Why is it that I can't accept the various change in times and move on with the flow? Why do I not like the music being played on radio? Why do I not want to change the food that I order in a particular shop? Why do I not want to see the person I like change?
Is it because they are already fine the way they are? Is it because I like the way it is soo much that when it changes, I may not like it? "But everybody's changing and I don't feel right" as heard from Keane in Everybody's Changing. We all know everyone changes over time. Perhaps its the fear of the unknown then. The fear that the things we like may change to be bad or change into something we can't accept.
Oh well I think I'm thinking too much, but then again, if there's nothing in my mind, then I'll be a mindless automaton :). Anyway I apologise if this post makes little to no sense. It actually kinda feels like I'm talking to myself when I'm writing this. Haha!
Anyway, in conclusion I think all I can do is pray that God will perform his will and help me to accept the reality that some things needs changing. For example, sins. We all should change ourselves to not continue sinning but instead strive to be christlike and walk in the light. I just have to have faith that everything is in his hands and whatever change in things are for the betterment of me. And I pray also that I will learn to accept the various changes in life, myself as well as others especially the people I care about.
Tuesday, June 26, 2007
Monday, June 18, 2007
What Did I Do on the Weekends?
Saturday
The first thing to do is to sleep as much as possible to try to recover whatever lost sleep I missed on the weekdays. Thus I normally wake up at 2-3pm in the afternoon. But that’s also because I normally stay up to 3-4am in the morning before that.
After lunch, I stayed at home and played some computer games. Now that work has started, I can't get to play on the weeknights. So all the playing have to be done on the weekends. It was soon 5.30 and I had to prepare to go to church at 5.45. Had dinner at 6 and was at church at 6.30.
After church at 8, Mark was at my house to wait for Vincent who was having dinner with his parents. We later adjourned to Mark's house and watched Shooter the movie. It was quite good as it’s a movie about a master sniper. Shooting people at 1+ mile is really amazing. I recommend you guys to watch it if you have not.
Anyway after that, I got home and continued playing some computer games and then slept at about 2am. I wanted to go for the 11AM Young Adult's meeting thing, but no one reply my SMS'es as well as no one wanted to follow me. Hence I slept in till about 2pm.
Sunday
Woke up at 2pm and started working on some left over work from Friday. Basically I had to add in some codes to some functions as well as find another way to make the function more optimized/efficient. It was not a big deal and it was done at about 6.
My family went out for dinner with Lemuel to Bibi Chik. The place serves Nyonya food which was quite good but the weird thing is that there is one corner where there is this guy who's holding a guitar with a kick and a hihat singing oldies song. Imagine yourself playing the guitar, singing and using your legs to play the drums to get the beat all at the same time. It was really amazing.
After that, we came home and Mark called me up and said that he and Vincent wanted to watch Austin Powers 3. I took my hard disk and went over to Vincent's house this time to watch the movie. The great thing about having a DivX HDD player is that you can go anywhere and plug that thing to any TV with RCA slots and it will play whatever movie I have in the hard disk.
Got home, read emails, read people's blog and decided to blog too and thus this post is created. Now its really late and its time to sleep. Some of you may find that my blogging style has changed, but its basically caused by the fact that I don't have much to blog about. I will blog if there are interesting things that happened, but if not; I'll just put the updates of myself.
The first thing to do is to sleep as much as possible to try to recover whatever lost sleep I missed on the weekdays. Thus I normally wake up at 2-3pm in the afternoon. But that’s also because I normally stay up to 3-4am in the morning before that.
After lunch, I stayed at home and played some computer games. Now that work has started, I can't get to play on the weeknights. So all the playing have to be done on the weekends. It was soon 5.30 and I had to prepare to go to church at 5.45. Had dinner at 6 and was at church at 6.30.
After church at 8, Mark was at my house to wait for Vincent who was having dinner with his parents. We later adjourned to Mark's house and watched Shooter the movie. It was quite good as it’s a movie about a master sniper. Shooting people at 1+ mile is really amazing. I recommend you guys to watch it if you have not.
Anyway after that, I got home and continued playing some computer games and then slept at about 2am. I wanted to go for the 11AM Young Adult's meeting thing, but no one reply my SMS'es as well as no one wanted to follow me. Hence I slept in till about 2pm.
Sunday
Woke up at 2pm and started working on some left over work from Friday. Basically I had to add in some codes to some functions as well as find another way to make the function more optimized/efficient. It was not a big deal and it was done at about 6.
My family went out for dinner with Lemuel to Bibi Chik. The place serves Nyonya food which was quite good but the weird thing is that there is one corner where there is this guy who's holding a guitar with a kick and a hihat singing oldies song. Imagine yourself playing the guitar, singing and using your legs to play the drums to get the beat all at the same time. It was really amazing.
After that, we came home and Mark called me up and said that he and Vincent wanted to watch Austin Powers 3. I took my hard disk and went over to Vincent's house this time to watch the movie. The great thing about having a DivX HDD player is that you can go anywhere and plug that thing to any TV with RCA slots and it will play whatever movie I have in the hard disk.
Got home, read emails, read people's blog and decided to blog too and thus this post is created. Now its really late and its time to sleep. Some of you may find that my blogging style has changed, but its basically caused by the fact that I don't have much to blog about. I will blog if there are interesting things that happened, but if not; I'll just put the updates of myself.
Wednesday, June 13, 2007
Updates...
Wow! It’s been 10 days since I last blogged. I wanted to make it a point to update at least once a week. I guess I got caught up in work and all. :) Anyway, I'll just put a little update here on how I've been doing.
It’s been 3 months+ now since I started working, and surprisingly I can say that I'm enjoying it. As of now, I've not been in much stress.... yet and I hope I won't be in one. Some even say that I'm makan-ing gaji in my workplace, MSN-ing whole day and always on online mode.
Well, to clarify that, I do work, but it’s just that whenever they chat with me, I have nothing to do. Sometimes the day is a bit slow and there's nothing to do because you're waiting for someone to hand you their release so that you can work on it. There are times when I had to put Busy mode for a while, though it normally lasts for 30 minutes or so. :)
As for CG, I'm really enjoying this CG I'm attending. Now it seems that there is more and more events being planned every week, which is actually good for bonding between the members especially those fellowship outings. Just last Sunday, we all had Dim Sum in this place in SS2 called "My Little Dim Sum Place". The food is actually quite good though a bit pricey, but that’s what you get if you want an air-cond place on a hot Sunday afternoon.
So far all is well, and I hope it continues on like this.
PS: All the best to everyone having exams :)
It’s been 3 months+ now since I started working, and surprisingly I can say that I'm enjoying it. As of now, I've not been in much stress.... yet and I hope I won't be in one. Some even say that I'm makan-ing gaji in my workplace, MSN-ing whole day and always on online mode.
Well, to clarify that, I do work, but it’s just that whenever they chat with me, I have nothing to do. Sometimes the day is a bit slow and there's nothing to do because you're waiting for someone to hand you their release so that you can work on it. There are times when I had to put Busy mode for a while, though it normally lasts for 30 minutes or so. :)
As for CG, I'm really enjoying this CG I'm attending. Now it seems that there is more and more events being planned every week, which is actually good for bonding between the members especially those fellowship outings. Just last Sunday, we all had Dim Sum in this place in SS2 called "My Little Dim Sum Place". The food is actually quite good though a bit pricey, but that’s what you get if you want an air-cond place on a hot Sunday afternoon.
So far all is well, and I hope it continues on like this.
PS: All the best to everyone having exams :)
Sunday, June 3, 2007
A Little Bit About My Upbringing
Recently I've been flooded with lots of emotions ranging from love to disappointment and to sadness. Probably one of those phase again where I'm just emo-ing. I know its not good to be pessimistic about myself and all, but sometimes it just happens. I would like to take this opportunity to share a little bit about my upbringing.
When I was in form 2 or 3, I have a friend who started drawing a comic on Starcraft. I saw that it was quite interesting and thought that I would try to make one myself. Although I may lack the drawing skills, its about the story that matters. I took a few A4 papers, folded them in 2 and stapled them to make it a book. Upon completing my homework that day, I started drawing bit by bit. I sucked at drawing and hence drew 2d images instead of 3d or perspective drawing. So everything is stickman-ish and very plain. However, the main plot is the story and as I was about to conclude the whole story; while drawing the nuclear symbol with my compass, my mom stepped in and saw me using the compass and came over to see me doing my comic. Without looking at it I was scolded and was asked to throw the whole thing away and to study. It was about 10 pages long and down it went to the rubbish bin. There goes the chance to improve my art skills, yay!
With the constant drill to study everyday, there is little time or chance to expand or try or do other things. There is little to no opportunity to find out what I like to do or what I'm good at. I know that I'm a little lazy sometimes idling time away but if you look at it, if I'm expected to study, what can I do on the free times? Any activity will take time and hence you'll get the "Go Study Now!!" phrase from parents. Thankfully I actually had a talent in programming and computers that I was able to complete the Computer Science course. If not, I really do not know what I would end up.
Another thing I would like to share is the lack of support and encouragement. There are countless times when I would come home and report some of the problems I faced in school. One of the examples is when I had a fight in school with some kid. I tell them that and the first thing they would say is that "Oh it must have been your fault" or "You must have started it or aggravated him". Without even hearing the whole story and to know that most of the time it was the other guy who started hitting me first, they would say those phrases and not show the attention or give the support that I was seeking for. I mean even if I'm wrong, at least I expect them to support me and say it in a positive way like "Oh maybe he's having a bad day that’s why he hit you".
I don't really blame my parents for all these since they do have their good points and also because "it’s for your own good" which is sometimes quite true. Oh well, just wished that I did have that support and sometimes how I wish I can relive the past and try to change who I am today. Anyway, it’s only a phase of time. I will eventually forget about this and go on with life. I just hope that I don't remember this that often.
When I was in form 2 or 3, I have a friend who started drawing a comic on Starcraft. I saw that it was quite interesting and thought that I would try to make one myself. Although I may lack the drawing skills, its about the story that matters. I took a few A4 papers, folded them in 2 and stapled them to make it a book. Upon completing my homework that day, I started drawing bit by bit. I sucked at drawing and hence drew 2d images instead of 3d or perspective drawing. So everything is stickman-ish and very plain. However, the main plot is the story and as I was about to conclude the whole story; while drawing the nuclear symbol with my compass, my mom stepped in and saw me using the compass and came over to see me doing my comic. Without looking at it I was scolded and was asked to throw the whole thing away and to study. It was about 10 pages long and down it went to the rubbish bin. There goes the chance to improve my art skills, yay!
With the constant drill to study everyday, there is little time or chance to expand or try or do other things. There is little to no opportunity to find out what I like to do or what I'm good at. I know that I'm a little lazy sometimes idling time away but if you look at it, if I'm expected to study, what can I do on the free times? Any activity will take time and hence you'll get the "Go Study Now!!" phrase from parents. Thankfully I actually had a talent in programming and computers that I was able to complete the Computer Science course. If not, I really do not know what I would end up.
Another thing I would like to share is the lack of support and encouragement. There are countless times when I would come home and report some of the problems I faced in school. One of the examples is when I had a fight in school with some kid. I tell them that and the first thing they would say is that "Oh it must have been your fault" or "You must have started it or aggravated him". Without even hearing the whole story and to know that most of the time it was the other guy who started hitting me first, they would say those phrases and not show the attention or give the support that I was seeking for. I mean even if I'm wrong, at least I expect them to support me and say it in a positive way like "Oh maybe he's having a bad day that’s why he hit you".
I don't really blame my parents for all these since they do have their good points and also because "it’s for your own good" which is sometimes quite true. Oh well, just wished that I did have that support and sometimes how I wish I can relive the past and try to change who I am today. Anyway, it’s only a phase of time. I will eventually forget about this and go on with life. I just hope that I don't remember this that often.
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